we are soldiers, stand or die.

that is towards the closing theme of 2nd gig.
for some reason, i believe it so, irregardless of our mission.

having said that
i also don’t even know why i am into this kind of predicaments but oh well..i have to make it like that la..

my boss just told me to shape my life around work.
oh yay!!!! you know last year, i used to do that, because
i really needed the money. but after burning out,
i dun even give a shit.
right now, if i want something, i will buy it because i can.
i save some but when i do have spare – considering i am always working and no time to spend, when i do get a chance, damnit i will do the damage because it’s money and when you die, you cannot bring it to the grave.

perhaps i may or may not subconsciously take his advice to heed but i might end up shaping work to life anyway since it’s standing at 50-50….

we are soldies, stand or die, indeed…

bleh

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stand alone complex

i was reading the philosophies behind this and i must say that i am very much intrigued.

my personal lives has come to the point where i have to just accept that things are like that and i have to say something about soon before i lose the entire of my sanity. [nothing to do with r.ship : D] but it’s bout the other annoyance that has been haranguing me like crazy.

i wish life could be like office’s inbox and outbox.
really. and then there’s the urgent stamp. everything else can just pile up and flow and then when i EVER have the time to sit there and sort it out, sure, why not?
but that is not a luxury i can afford at the moment because i am not 60 and my bank account isn’t a pileage of trillion and gazillions, therefore i must do what i can to achieve that.

been buying shitloads of books and finishing it..not something i normally do but there are lot of books that i have and would like to read…finally..i have regained something again.

having said that, i like the way their MO runs by in terms of TeamWork. quite cool.

btw after watching this film, i have so many thoughts and questions…and i am beginning to feel, i am currently wasting a lot of time doing what i am doing right now….and that above all,i am still very much, alone.

“sitting at the park alone is not something i can normally ‘afford’ either because if i was in asia at that time of the day in a park all by myself, i could’ve found myself dead, chopped into pieces and possibly sexually assaulted. as i was sitting on the bench on the baseball field, i feel like the tears streaming out from my eyes were carrying out my frustrations and pent up anger and ultimately, disappointment. i don’t know how long i must’ve sat there fore but it must’ve been ages because the lights went off. so silly, a girl in the park crying to herself while the winds goes about it’s business despite the darkness and loneliness it was unknowingly carrying away”

not sure if that make sense but i wanted to write that down. all in less than a minute.

right, back to the bookshop i am going to pick up my next new book.
and back to watching more movies and series of thought provoking issues…

although, aside from keeping me sane, i have no idea how any of the above would be relevant to my current work cum shit fuckadamnit situation.

toodles

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so full…

omg..i really shouldn’t but we did.
and if there is one thing bout msian ppl that pisses me off is that everyone ALWAYS likes to fight for the bloody bill….basket..and this time i lost…
it’s no mean feat but my guest today were my host in wellington and end up my friend hogg the bloody bill GRRR feel like slaughtering her now… K if u r reading this, i will get u back next time cos u ar!~!!!!!!! *strangleS*we were supposed to share man!!!! ISH…..

i say this because the bill was gastronomically high and we should share the bill cos it’s only right for us!!!

ok anyway it was my day off..well somewhat..in the end i went back and saw that shitload of crap i had to do i mean…why would someone do this to me? it’s like i’m doing someone a favour to go back to work even tho i shuldn’t have to and i did and they left all the dirty bloody work to me knowing i had to leave early. i am really beginning to really hate what i do but then again, that is life. shit like this always fall onto the person who complains on the side…because complaining out front will make my boss lose face..sometimes i even wonder why i have to put up with this kinda crap..but i think tomorrow i won’t be so i dun give a shit literally.

omg..the whole day i see food and food and mountains of food…just lookin at that mountainous amount of food makes me queasy edi….-___- but i am thankful i have food la..later get lambasted for complaining cos of the ppl in Myanmar and china… haiz…

aside from that i am really full and once again, i think i really want to starve the next few days…

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i need a new face

seriously,

i might need a new face cos the current one is being worned out and also cos there’s a lot of pimples and black heads and what nots and oil and crap….

i’d like plastic surgery done but some people don’t like unnatural face..blah…what’s with you guys and facial reconstruction? i mean it’s just going under the knife but then again i’d like not to have dirt trapped under the new skin so i guess i have to spend a lot on cleaning the current face before i can put on a new one..

haihz…so complicated…

being a girl is not easy..make up, facial regime, sleep, food, nutrition etc..

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day trippin’ and saying it as ‘paykel.’

i’m going for a day trippin’ to wellington [while..mr kan frolicks in the sun in singapore.....]
what friend is ever so nice to fly down for someone’s graduation, wine and dine them like nobody’s business and then fly back to whereever the hell they came from?
me. cos i am going to wellington for my best bud’s graduation.

weeeeee XD

ok anyway sorry i’ve not blog for a few days[ NOT LIKE ANY1 CARESsss *emo emo emo emo* ...i've been really lazy...and been reading and watching shitloads of manga...... *dies*

ok anyway

i have a few things to rant about. it's about these NZ-der..
ever hear of the saying as follows

tomato ; tometo [it's the way u say it...but u spell it both as tomato]

potato ; potaato [ same explanation]

geez if there is one thing i hate, it’s to give someone else english lesson esp if they are natives or lived here long enough la.and pls, who cares as it’s a problem with accents and even more, why the hell do i need english lessons, from you? ever heard of “each to their own?” the reason why i am writing this as it’s the 3rd occurrences and if i dun write it here, i will end up lambasting the person with this… don’t pick a bloody fight with me with this because i know what i am saying. and i am right when i say – oh fine..nz way ma…but i am not nz…lolol i just live here : D but it doesn’t mean i will identify myself as one..i am..me…

paykel – fisher and paykel vs *insert tom,dick,harry* paykel

right.

for the noobs – tom, dick and harry is a common term in a saying that means – just about any guy.

ie. she just sleeps with any tom, dick or harryys…. <–examplar

right. paykel..them kiwi says is like “Pai-kel” but how does that work if?

pay -
“REMEMBER TO PAY ME BACK ASS HOLE” <— PAY = paaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy [as said]

so.

paykel = payyyyyyy + kelllll , no??

not fucking

Pai + kelllll right?

and don’t fucking call me a noob because I AM NOT KIWI cos i am not white nor was i born here but i can identify with them a few things here and there…i get it if u want to say it as paikel and not ‘paykel’ but dun force it down my throat…

and one more thing, it’s not just you who knows the dam language, it is my first language too but u dun see me telling that straight to ur face like that, do u ? grr

p/s: it just occurred to me that because fisher and paykel is a brand, it could be just twisted in its pronunciation as such because it’s advertising.

ok sometimes y can sound and act as i but GEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz it’s just a friggin common name man…leave me alone *runs*

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got pwn by real life…

omgwtfbbq.

ok i have to update…i really have too..so i dun see that stupid sitemeter thing crash like crapped stock that’s falling off the market..i’m just kidding..i didn’t realise that until like just now wtf…

i have to blog because i went out and bummed with ze blax wabbit and the case-ster aka chuuuchuu [again] and this is how we rolled – borders they go in i dashed out – they missed me and ended up at manga section and i ended up at paying station…eh…I WAS PAYING at the station downstairs bro…????? [no fatesss *sniff*]

and then…akward moment pass and we ended up at Genzui!

the best the best the best the best the best the best the best the best the best the best the best the best the best of you takoyaki

hehehe [well compared to that SH*t i had at daikoku on bloody victoria st.....]

and then later we went off hulu maoz..go see the perversed pixs of 3 cats…rofl…pussy action alright [gosh for this statement i'm sure the spam index will sky rocket] so dumb….they cannot tellme if they make their own dessert nor can they tellme who their supplier is…lol..the reason why i ask so i can tell if they serving me stupid hollywood cafe desserts cos i am not gonna pay for that kind of shit… : D

**come to think of it, i’ve never fucking stepped foot into that place EVER HAHAHAHAAHAH ever since…lololol…i kinda feel like every time i had to go there, it was forced and farced and i also dunno why i am at that place with nothing to eat or drink exceot marble cheesecake…now i look back, most of the things i used to do weren’t very voluntarily….foodwise… eating with someone who wants to decide but doesn’t want to decide and when u decide he goes..not that shit again……miserable la… *dies* i dun really want to compare it like in a bad way but i’m just saying, come to think of it, just was not my type in the long run…cannot and will never be able to fulfill or even bring me any happiness that is even close to what i had before or what i have now and in the future…**

*i don’t remember what happened to the pix..maybe bf saw casey’s pix n deleted his lengzhainess T_T*i’ve failed

btw

panic! at the workplace111!!!

and i am going to steal this quote from chrissy

“we all just got pwn by real life”

shitz.

oh yea i want to ask – WTF is wrong with friendster? hahahaha how the hell does someone sees my pix and then goes – tellme bout ur cool cool life…lmfao…go fuck urself la….. read my blog and i can tell u – i’m emo…80% of the time.. the otha 20%, i’m ZZzzzz… -_-”

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robert downey jr. i <3

i <3 this man. he is very talented you know and his latest movie, ironman, tho not his finest work [because i love kiss kiss bang bang more and his role in ally mcbeal], still, i <3 that man ever so because he is very talented. he is very very good and they paired him up with gwyneth paltrow – amazing onscreen pair, you know [not to mention in real life, they are really really intellectual people]!

oh yea next movie i am going to watch – by hook or by crook – Shine a Light. (which ended up not showing anymore><)

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ok because i am bored

i’m going to pimp this penny pupz that we all know and love…
well … i know her and i love her enough la..why u all care..

well no need pimping geh..but then right…
she finally has this blog that i can finally tag and it’s not forever changing until i go sienzzzZZZz cos dunno where to link. i hope you guys enjoy reading chef penny’s adventure.

[bitch...never cook for me la..and never confirm melb until i can't even make it gRRrrrr]

btw

this morning i had the most bloody orgasmic tasting Bread Butter PUdding..
and that feelin just went to potong stim aka anti climax cos..
i just got reminded i fucking forgot to do bread order for the shop today.
god only knows what they managed to sell but please…let it be that they manage to make some kind of profit today in this shitholeAwesome weather.

having said that..there has never been a day ever since i started working that i can breath properly, eat properly and sleep let alone shit properly..because i am too busy worrying bout what i did do or didn’t do..ZZzzzzz… i wonder how am i going to survive… i still think i should’ve studied fucking culinary at some point in my life since it comes to me easier than fucking other shitz does…

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